Michael has field for the next two-ish weeks. This is our first field experience and we are not sure what to expect. Those two things alone bring up some anxiety.
When Michael left for deployment we were unsure of where he was going, what he would be doing, when we would be able to speak to him again, if he would be safe, and when he would be home.
Now I do know when Michael will be home, I know where abouts he will be and we know he will be safe. So the anxiety isn't anywhere close to as bad as it was when he left for deployment.
There are the little things that trigger those emotions that only deployment or a long separation can bring up.
The truck is out front, but he isn't home.
I have put away the last of his laundry until he gets back.
I can't text him and expect a reply.
He won't be home for breakfast, lunch or supper.
I will be sleeping and waking up without him.
The kids have already commented that he would be home for breakfast by now.
Two weeks isn't that long. None of us are worried about it and we aren't sitting on the couch in tears like we were when he deployed. You *can* tell though that the stress from deployment is not far enough away for him to be gone again. At least in our hearts.
There is also the added thoughts that this will be the longest we have ever been apart when I have been pregnant. I do have comfort that I have great friends who will help me if something comes up, and that I would be able to reach him if there was a true emergency.
We do have much joy to expect when he gets back. It looks like he will actually be here for Bella's birthday for the first time in her life. Well except for the day she was born. He did catch her after all. :)
This is just another learning experience for us. He will be going to field a lot next year and will be gone longer and a lot further away. We are already preparing for another deployment. He will miss a lot of Sarah's first year.
But we will cross that emotionally charged bridge when we come to it.....
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