I didn't really want to have a girl. Any healthy baby would have made me thrilled to pieces, but I wasn't looking to have a girl.
I have friends that have fought through wanting a specific gender and won. I love their stories. I couldn't be happier for them. For my third baby I really just wanted another boy.
Boys are fun. They are loud and messy and crazy and love football. I love watching them learn to play with trucks and balls. They are my thing. I grew tired of people assuming that because we had two boys and I was pregnant again that we "had to be trying for a girl". Right....because that is the *only* reason we would love this baby. ugh.
At least I thought they were.
Michael and I really believe that Sunny was a girl. I think that made it hard to hope for a girl for some reason. We hoped Johnathon would be a boy. Michael wanted Gabriel to be a girl. Michael gave up on wanting anything particular for our third. I was always really just happy to be getting a baby. Healthy, happy and whole was all I wanted.
So when we were with Mary, at the sono place, for the third time with our third pregnancy, we didn't have any expectations. She said it was a girl. Michael couldn't believe it. I silently cried like I do at all of my sonos. Both of us asked her if she was sure. She just laughed. She is good at her job.
It took us a while to get used to pink and purple instead of blue and green. She is a hoot. We love our Isabella with everything in our bodies. Life wouldn't be the same with out our little girl.
Yesterday I received some maternity clothes that my mother and sister bought for me. (Hi Mom and Mary Beth!!! Thank you!!!) I was trying them on to show Michael. One shirt didn't fit my chest, the shorts are perfect and a skirt and shirt might be a little big....in case you wondered. :)
Bella walked up and said "oooohhh mama. What those clothes?"
I said "They are clothes for while I have the baby in my belly."
I had on a shirt that had a gather at the bottom and a skirt.
Bella "Mama what this? *points to gather in the shirt* Oh mama!!! You have a tutu like me!!!!! Mama spin around!!!!"
*I spin around*
Bella "Oh mama you so pretty. I spin in my tutu now too."
Every skirt is a tutu to her. :) She is my friend. She is the girlfriend I will have in my house for at least the next 16-ish years.
I will cherish every moment I have with our little girl.
Even though I swoon at the thought of getting to put dinosaur shoes on another little boy who will be throwing balls and making siren noises, there might be a little part of me that hopes this one is another girl.
I still don't do pink. Purple is an awesome color though.