I find myself almost forgetting I am pregnant. I haven't bled in a while and I am not all that sickly. Thank God. The baby is still too small to feel, yet I can feel stretching on my c-section scar area. It is a weird place to be.
I remember feeling this way with Johnathon. His pregnancy was blissfully uneventful until the wreck at the very end. No bleeding and not much sickness. Once the sickness stopped I was just there until I could feel him.
With Gabriel and Bella I was sick or bleeding pretty bad until 17 weeks. So I really only had a few weeks of calm before I could feel them fluttering around in there. The relief was amazing.
I am so thankful every time I go to the bathroom and there is no blood. I am thankful when I get that twinge of sickness to remind me. I am thankful that right now I am not having many symptoms of pregnancy. It just takes some getting used to.
I find myself wanting to use the doppler twice a week, which is so much better than everyday like I used to with other pregnancies. It has been almost a week since I used it because it can be loud and Bella has been asleep before we have had a chance to. The worry creeps in often. I try, as always, to push it back down.